Repetitio mater studiorum est
If anyone could give me a paid job in line with my qualifications, not because I do not want to work at shop or warehouse, but due to my low section spine impairment since mid- 2020 (sometimes very paintful) or even since mid-2003 (up-section hyperextension confirmed in medical exam) and very serious sight impairment since early childhood that excludes heavy or even moderate lifting or too exessive effort, I would strongly appreciate it.
Other way to support is to pay a free amount directly to my banking account with the number as follows:
BREXPLPWMBK98114020040000360233760739
That could help me to upgrade the site and continue work on it, unless no one wants me to write or say anything more. For now, in June 14408 valid views, 9188 so-called errors, 5781 sessions with 1:54 for a single one. Since the beginning of 2026 – 14593 valid views for 6904 sessions with 1:48 sec. of an average duration. Last year 167315 with 44820 sessions. Last 7 days: 2758 with 0:42 of an average session duration. The number of sessions: 1690. Have not gotten a penny for my hard work. Total views in June 2026: about 15000. Bots account for 13.9% share in total access in 2026. For the last month bots obtained 9.1% share in views. The valid pages access increased within the last 30 days by 17% to 12827, while client error pages soared by 16.9% versus 30 previous days to 4868. Last month valid increase amounted to 21% to 12811, error pages dropped by 2%. China share: 20% with 894 sessions. The US – 27.8% with 1247 sessionins. Singapore – 6.2% share. Poland – 138 with 3.1% share for the last month- June 2026 and 2.8% share with 144 sessions for the last 30 days. The total number of vires since the beginning of this year – 2026 – about 127000. I resigned from these ,,professional” sources, as I am not going to perform unpaid highly-skilled work. No single word from me about medicine or energy. Unless anyone is willing to pay me – on my banking account for the content she/he used/uses at various meetings, conferences, decision-making sittings, etc. The banking account number has been specified on the website – above. The tax is to be paid. People do not wish me to be journalist – fine. I accept.
And again, as still dirty attempts are made: I do not wish any contact with my parents, especially so-called farther, so-called family, and any former boyfried, former fiances or would-be husbands. True friends are welcome!
To confess: my main regret is given help in 1999 and the British Chevening Scholarship in 2002/03 in Oxford (anyway stolen, as I could notice living in a huge trauma for the recent over 20 years), as well as baptism and brain-washing in the Polish mafian church with my (fortunately dead) lovely aunty.
My email, if someone wants to return my 50 birthday present (purchased myself) ,,How the Female Body Drove 200 million Years of Human Evolution” is evolutionandsecurity@proton.me. Just read about a half. But sometimes read from the end! The decision to clear me out has been made on January 20, 2024, when I was in London for my birthday. Did anyone wish me anything nice for my birthday in the recent years? Apart from those realy unfortunate wishes you want to breake me again to accept. No. It has been clear for many, many years.
My heart stopped on February 28, 2024 after 3 years of hard and heart-given work along with very sore spine for Polish Public Television, Science Unit because I wanted to have normal life and on May 8, 2025 after tremendously hard work for Medonet/Onet, because I wanted my Oxford Diploma/background to be published on their website and wanted to write a decent story about the medical boundaries in human development to cut or at least decrease life-costing mistakes. I just needed more medical information.
Lesson: never help others, even though their life is threaten. Why? Because you will not even receive information about a mass in the intention of their health improvement. You will be accused of bringing insects to the flat because you do not have time to stay long and you do not want to clean as this is not your home. The keys will be immediately taken with the message – go for a holiday, rest! Others will ask: why are you doing this? Going to the rehabilitation place? You want this flat, don’t you? – when you give a paid advert to contact someone close to smooth suffering because of the illness. For your birthday present you will receive an evicion of allegedly unpaid invoices for funded from your money rehabilitation of the person life you accidentally saved, which had been paid a year ago. And when you need a job, you get an offer to be a free caregiver. You really did not want to save, as you did not want to open the door in the early morning, alone, not seeing, who is knocking and why. Was my door the only one knocked to? You can be paid caregiver but far away from your country with broken spine. So never again!
So my heart will not beat anymore, as it used to. Too much dirt. Fingers crossed for those, who have faith! One message – I was scheduled for an upgrade surgery of my low-back spine twice, as the first one is not well-done. Who received it instead, as my ,,injury” was less important for medics and the so-called familiy and former friends?
My final thoughtful request is: I would kindly ask to take under consideration that I would like to receive my upgraded Oxford Diploma along with the Alumni Number for the paper I researched and wrote within 3 months, when the stipulated time was one year, upgraded University of Warsaw Diploma and a decently-paid job in line with my qualifications, along with the reunion to the society and people at my age, instead of constantly hearing – no place, go somewhere else, we do not like you, take your medicines and shut up, go to bed, you are a course and useless slut, as it was a very nice summary of my work for Polish Public Television along with pictures of mine which were not mine in line with the philosopy – you are that much slut, another time makes no difference. I have a deal with someone and I would like to start my own life for myself at once at the age of over 52. Of course I can do nothing if you are not wishing or willing to accept my requests. But, anyway all of them, now, have been expressed clearly and openly. With restrictions: no former boyfrieds, fiances, would-be husbands or the so-called family that can be easily checked in records. No trust from me anymore after so many humililiations and infractings to check whether I deserved life and job or not deserved.
And yes, I was waiting for theoretically my friends to call and say a good word about me. Spontanously, to invite me somewhere to spend some time with me, to ask how I am, to say something nice, to say my writing improved, my look, just to talk and not to use everything they hear against. Not the old ones. At my age. Instead I got imairment in exchange for money, that I had to take. I look in the mirror. What can I see? Empty. Wishing you smile and happiness, when you are happy because of someone’s else breakdown! And yes, I feel deeply hurt, constantly hurt, despite all my efforts and trials to deserve for a normal life – job, someone close, flat renovation, cat, sometimes restaurant. Instead I can not get connexion with anyone, even if I see that someone called, I am hungry, as I do not have money to buy food, bank refuses a loan as the perspective has been downgraded. Why? Because I smoke? If I had a tiny chance for a normal, stable life with someone with me (apart from the mentioned above who the most substantial help was given not only in 1999, with this I did not want and I do not want anything – it would not be different this time), that I want to be with, not because others want, I would have given up smoking many years ago. I smoke nearly 40 years. That happen, if you sell your child, when you do not need to or you buy it, because you have your own plan for its life. Can not forgive? I can. Did it many times and many times was asking it for myself. No one wished. Why? Maybe because they think I should forgive this I do not want to, as one or two of my former friends suggested. And really this time, I do not want to. Why? No trust. Simple.
And to be honest, I would not trust God at least on Earth taking into account the numbers of dead in wars, because of fanatics actions and brain-clearing catholic propaganda along with money for births, baptisms, weddings and funerals. The quantity of the latter substantially increased in the recent years. People decide about their faith. And the only way to stop fault deaths is fair-play, free choice and respect to ,,no” instead of constantly destroying, what someone else is trying to build, not to mention someone elses’ work robbery, depriving or helping others just to build its own connexions and image. Hell and devils welcome!
Happy Chevening meeting in Warsaw! Would be nice to be invited. No one called to say a word. Instead of me those who ruined, stole my life, paper, health and money and I do not wish any contact with. But I would come, if anyeone else had told me. So another proof how totally I was excluded and recognized as disgraced, persona-non-grata. As I said no contact with the so-called farther and his holly wife. I returned the parcel from them without opening. Another proof how totally they do not respect what I am saying and what I am asking for. To AstraZeneca – no consent from me to store my data anymore. Wishing you a nice evening raut!
It would be also, first of all, nice to enter the place of meeting because of my Grandma Birthday Commemoration. As usually since the recent 23 years – the door was closed. With kind regards and best wishes! I am not expecting anything from you, you don’t expect anything from me. For me, you are both dead for these all years of heart and help from my side, sent money and support as such. Never again.
To University of Warsaw. You do not have me among those you can be proud of. I have not turned out to be human. Another form to join an event and find out there is no place for me. Thank you!
marta.koblanska@evolutionandsecurity.com, evolutionandsecurity@proton.me
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